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heyss~

im back again..
today was unusual much..
i had moodswing as what amanda mentioned..
idk why but it just happens
for  a whole hour of malay ck isnani nagged
then english wanted to sit with amanda to cheer her up
but she was away so dont want
then it was recess and the yog girls came
aft that was science -snores-
then history.. was a little happy by then
maths came was back to moodswing :(

today didnt go watch step up with the guys..
sorry-- anyway i can repay the time wasted for my reply?
really sorry. wanted to go but no other she-male so decided not to
then went to comics with asdira buy thing for amani
----end----

I wonder why do i care so much about people when they dont do so to me
Why am i not being thought of others when i think of them
Why dont i get good karma after good deeds
Why must i get bad karma after good deeds ( i dont believe in karma though)
Not a single one is thinking why do i always help them instead of myself
Why do you people have to act caring infront of me only when you have no one to go to
what the fukc..
Im trying to make others life easier when im living in a misery
No one sees it except for me
I wish to cry all my heart out but no one seems to lend me their shoulder
FML!
Why must you steal away my people
Just be frank, i wont kill you for being so
I can see it in your eyes, texts, and actions that you dont mean what you say to me
Tell me if you hate me and i will back off
Tell me you dont wanna see me and i will not see you anymore
I dont think i can trust anyone anymore
I will have to depend on myself than you guys
Im not some rubbish to be thrown as and when you want
I know im not so appealing to be seen
I myself know that..
I might not be okay even if i mention so
I might not be what i said but i just kept it all within me
All i want to say is just stop putting me in life in misery alright

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